The Hardest Thing

Heart Chakra Mandala

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it's hard 

to have compassion

i think it's actually 

the hardest thing

you have to let go 

of all your basic 

human emotions

    anger

    resentment

    desire

    fear

even a sense of 

what's fair

sometimes

you can't be 

reactionary

you can't think 

of yourself

or what you're not getting

it's the purest form of love

i don't know 

if i can be that pure

but i'm trying

Full Moon in Scorpio

Flipping through my date book, the days, weeks, months are just pages.  Today is this little rectangle.  If I write, I will rapidly fill it with thought, and it will not be enough to hold everything for today, about today, this moment, the moment before or after this moment.  A moment ago I was flipping through a smaller, tide chart calendar, and noticed that the whole year, all those powerful ebbs and flows, were contained in a tiny book that can fit in a surfer's pocket.  I was looking for moon-rise/moon-set.  The moon governs the tides, so I thought I would just quickly check on when I'd be able to see tomorrow's full moon.  This little book stopped me dead in my tracks.  Flipping quickly through the months, like they have no significance, and realizing that each of them have at least 30 days and a full moon all their own.  Does it take a full moon to make me realize the passing of time and how precious each moment really is?  Yes.  Thank goodness I get a reminder every month!  I'll never look at a full moon the same way ever again.

Tutus & Love

I'm a giver.  (So sue me...no wait, ya might not wanna, cuz I'm a lawyer too.)  Pardon the interruption.  I give a lot.  I'd probably give more, but I have an editor in the house:  my husband.  Sometimes he has saved me from grief...on a rare occasion.  But he really can't stop me from being me...poor dear.  Honestly, I need to be giving...it's who I am.  But my gifts must be meaningful.  And, I have to admit, they need to be appreciated.  Most of the time they are appreciated...I think I've learned where to devote my attention.  Is that selfish? Does it defeat the act of giving?  I don't really know.  But it won't stop me.  I'm unstoppable! Especially when I'm wearing a tutu!

Shine

Lately, I've been feeling like my age is showing.  That extra fluff...all over...my previously athletic body; those spots and wrinkles here and there; the grays.  But my age is also what has brought me to a greater sense of peace and joy in my life...it took time.  Time takes it's toll on you physically, but it also gives you the experience and wisdom to help you realize what's really important.  And I know that when I am thinking about what's important, I realize I am so fortunate.  I have love in my heart and confidence in who I am.  That's my light.  And when this light shines out, none of the physical signs of aging are noticed.  The light shines brightly and gets everyone's attention first.  This quote:  "Shine with all your light all the time" is from The Art of Racing in the Rain by Garth Stein.  It is what I remember when I'm looking for my light.